If you belive I have wings to fly...

Cockroach~ In your shoe~

2008-04-03T03:48:54Z

So I get around to sketching some stuff, yet my scanner/printer thing wont work. :O Lovely.
But I'm okay with that, I'm proud enough of myself for actually designing some male characters for a project I'm working on. Also designed some more side-characters for it... now I need to start pulling it together more. ^^;

Recently started playing the Korean MMORPG Mabinogi, they brought it to North America FINALLY~! I tried playing on the Japanese server a few years ago, but I didn't know you had to pay for certain character types, so I didn't get past creating a character on it. XP It's all okay now, Mabinogi gets to eat up all my time~ Sometimes I go on with the intention of leveling, only to sit around and talk to all the friends I'm making on there XD Finally, a SOCIAL game. Players in most other game's I've played kept to themselves too much. I also hope to start doing art of my lovely Mabinogi characters soon, but they're not pretty enough yet... (still a complete newb)

Right now I've moved on to finishing up some homework, since Mabinogi is down for a patch, and I feel like I drew enough for today. I just realized I have a big test tomorrow and I am really behind in class. Damn Japanese and it's tricky grammar!

I really shouldn't have gone clubbing last night, it was a freaking Tuesday! But I did... it was my friends birthday. At least I got to find out people in my class actually do care about me. The dude I was interested in, but decided to think nothing of because he has a girlfriend, hugged me a buncha times out of nowhere and when we were driving back to my friends place he was stroking my leg so I don't know what to think. : / Now it's going to be a little harder when I part from this dreaded place. Doesn't change that I still can't wait for this school year to end though.

So now I shall continue with homework and studying~

Two years later

2008-04-02T22:42:01Z

Gosh it's weird to come back to this. Haven't used LJ as a journal in a whole 2 years! As if that last post even counts. XD So wait... that means 3 whole years then! XDDDDD

So I was going to try making another journal, to use as an art journal, but that didn't work out. I don't want to figure out the new layout features and crap since I'm used to what it was like before so I decided to just come back to this and re-do it up. First is first, gotta change the eye-blinding colors... geez. What was wrong with me?

Best part about all of this is, while I don't remember what kind of posts I used to post, never again will there be some sorta teen-angst post. XP If I ever posted things like that... and I have a feeling I did.

Now to figure out what to do with this silly journal, when I have time. ^^; If I ever get it done, my first picture post will probably be HaruhikoxKyonko XD Just gotta finish that sketch. But damn... I really wanna do Noe Isurugi fanart too!

And as a final note, never expect ANYTHING from me. The likeliness of things I say coming true are always slim...

If you have a grudge...

2006-03-15T00:18:30Z

Just send them to hell!

12:00 AM in Japan, 10:00 AM here!

http://jigokutsuushin.net/

Nihongo o motto naraitai...

2005-05-06T20:41:32Z

I want to stay fifteen. I have liked being fifteen. So the fact that I am going to be sixteen tomorrow is nothing special to me~ I don't think I will care about my birthday's at all anymore~ >__>;

Hmm~ *kicks Ryuuen* He's so slow~! >__<; Yet again I want to do things on DA and check my email... but I can't...

La~?

2005-04-30T02:28:40Z

Short entry - I am in a drawing mood it seems. YAY!

~♥♥♥

Something important gone...

2005-04-11T02:00:02Z

...
Today, April 10th, my cat Max whome I thought of as a brother died...
He was 18 years old, I've known him my whole life...
It may be pathetic to others, but I should consider this the most depressing thing that is happened to me...
I will miss Max very much. I am just glad that he was able to die now so he didn't suffer any more. He lived a long nice life. It was surprising he lived this long...

kirakira~

2005-03-11T04:53:00Z

Kyaa~ I want to go to Japan... more and more everyday...

x__x; I have been downloading too much music instead of focusing on my Japanese history project... but if I want it to be long, I am already half way done~ Wai~

then I have to make the timeline though...

I am so happy I have nothing else big that's actually 'due' tomorrow~ >__>;;;

♥~

Wai~!!!

2005-02-15T03:12:16Z

Waaaaa~ How annoying~ VALENTINE'S DAY IS BEAUTIFUL!!! Because there are hearts. Hearts are pretty~ ♥~ So, Happy Valentine's Day~

*tear* I wanted to do something as in making something for Valentine's day to give people, but I am lazy and I forgot~ Oh well~ I drew things~

huuhu... *happy~*

~♥~

Hui~ Huuuui~

2005-01-25T04:07:31Z

Ehehe... I haven't updated in a while... x__x;

Weeeell... I am grounded because of my beautiful grade in Pre-cal~ I somehoe got my mom to let me go to Mohammads birthday party, thankfully~ It was... nice... umm... I hate being stuck at home~~~ I need to find some community service stuff for an excuse to leave... >__>; I guess...

*kicks Maple Story* I want to get the Party quest over with... Chikane needs to go up levels...*sigh*

*is angry she can't find her Japanese book* it has my homework in it~~~

Today is my Grandpa and Uncles last day here... ara... they were interesting to have... >__>; My grandpa has quite a personality...

*tear*
は。。。つ。。。こい。。。
*wonders if there was any point in that*

Hahuuu...

2004-12-31T19:31:51Z

>__>;

I think I've decided that I hate breaks... The only good thing is that there is no school work. =__=; Life becomes so pointless... even if it's only for a few weeks. I hate being at home because I have to deal with my two insane parents. My dad has always been insane... but my mom is scaring me. I think my dad drove her insane as well... *sigh* I can't wait for school~

Though the only reason I am not dreading going to school is because I wont have to deal with two certain teacher's anymore...

And for some reason my eating habits have gotten quite bad...

I should begin actually studying Japanese over this break as I had originally planned.

♥...

Yay~!

2004-12-21T18:21:36Z

We have been freed from Kaminski!

I am happy now~

Though I still have to study for Chemistry...

No time for anything~!

2004-11-25T04:54:10Z

>__<; Aaaaaaaaaaah~! Why do I suddenly have to find animating enjoyable... >__<;

Too many things I want to do or have to do right now~! Most of them are connected with drawing... *happilly in a drawing mood* commissions... drawing for fun... personal project... and now animating... which just happened a few minutes ago because of my brother~! @__@; uiiii.... *kicks him*

Yay~ I'm happy~ About all things, generally~ I don't know why~ It's fun to be happi~ La~~~

Though the thought of precal can ruin such things... *cries* Poor Kori and me~! Getting stuck with the stupidest of out class... *glares at Sabita* TT__TT; Lucky her... she probably didn't even have to do any work on the partner test~ I HATE KAMINSKI~!!!

Ahhh... tomorrow should be a fun filled day of drawing, writing, and sleeping~ ♥~ Uuuu~ I hope... at least~ @__@; Now to go to sleep...~ Though I think I will draw one thing... >__>; But it's something I must... hafuu~~~

Bai bai~

♥~

ohh~ Happi happi~

2004-11-08T02:26:34Z

Ahh... what to say...

I saw The Incredibles today along with Rod, Paul, and Jeshi~ 'Twas a very... interesting movie... I liked it~ Hmm~ ^__^;;; I was quite happy to see Rod... kyaa... and he wasn't being all moody~~~ ♥ ~ It seemed although he was mad at me... and he only started talking to me normally last night... x__x; I was very happy then too... >__<; He made me quite depressed throughout the week~~ Kyaa~ *hits her pathetic self~*

Yesterday I went to the mall~ I got there at about 1:30-2 or so... and... just really walked around... x__x; And I bought two shirts... using one $10 bill, a $5 bill, a $1 bill, $5 in quarters, and two dimes... >__>; Ahh... poor lady... Later, at about 4 or so, I met up with Jeshi, and we went into Hot Topic, and were in there for a veeeeeeeery long time... x__X; and then we met Paul in there~ And later on we met Mohammad and his brother... and eventually we all left and such~ Though I stayed till 9 with my mom after they left~

Friday was fun too~ I went to school, took my Chemistry test, and then went to Pompano High for the Japanese Immersion day field-trip~ The Origami lady was interesting~ She seemed to like Origami veeery much~ @__@; Ikebana was fun, I liked the Japanese lady~ x__x; I felt like fainting when she asked me if I wanted a rose... in Japanese... kyaa~ My poor flower arrangement~ My cats wont stop knocking it down~ >__<; Later we ate, and eventually got back to school, *tear* It was fun to through sushi around with Jeshika and Megan again, like last year~ *__*;

Oh yes~ Grades~ My horrible grades~ @__@;

Chemistry - B
Personal Fitness - A
American History - A
Pre-calculus - C

O'mally, Chicago, and Oliver~ Max is not present in this picture... x__x;

~♥~

Shocking~

2004-11-01T18:36:28Z

At home, not at school. Thank goodness... I am very surprised that I am able to stay home though. Well... I do have to clean my room or else my dad is going to take away my computer, again. >__>; That is the only threat that ever is carried out...

Halloween was fun~ Trick or Treating with Jeshika, Rod, Paul, Mohammad and his brother~ The later three were quite scared when we went by a house with the backdoor opened, and no one was answering. There were also two cloaked decoration things inside by the door which the three claimed to have seen move. >__>; They thought it was a murderer who murdered the people of the house~ We got creeped out again later... yay~

I had my horrible unfinished 'Alice in Wonderland costume'. x__x; I didn't really want to wear it... since it wasn't really done... I didn't get to add frills, the top of the apron, and such. T'was horrible~ At least Jeshika helped me make it wearable~ >__<; Sorry Jeshi~

Hmm~ I really need to start working on my personal project... Once I am done with the other things I do... I'll try to start the script... *dies*

~♥~

>__<; I finally got over somethign I wanted to get over~!

2004-10-24T07:15:18Z

Kyaa~~~ Goodness~! I am so confused currently~ I don't think I understand anything~

So many things are happening suddenly, yet at the same time noting is happening at all~ *continues to be confused*

Today was... fun? I dunno~ I went to the back of Butterfly World to meet Jeshika, Rod, Paul, Daniel, and Sara(h). Mohammad and his brother and sister came a bit later... not that I came much earlier than them. There were too many things to do before I could leave~ Though, it was a bit boring when I got there. There wasn't too much talking, so I didn't really talk at all. No one was really eating anything, and I wasn't hungry so I didn't eat anything. Not that I probably would have ate if I was hungry... not that I understand why. >__>; *confusion ensues*

Rod made some of us model for pictures, including me... *sigh* It's okay since it was me from behind though, I guess. After leaving under the big tree to get out of the rain, we waited a few minutes under the front of 'Butterfly World'. Then we went to the playground thing, and I sat down on the bench the whole time. When there were people there and when there wasn't anyone else there. I found it lonely~

And the pig~ There was a pig that was being walked around~

After that I went home with Jeshika~ We looked for movie times to see 'The Grudge'. I wonder if there was a point in looking it up... x__x; Whatever we did before leaving to go see it, I don't remember~ Except for the pretty picture Jeshika drew of a guy in a car~ >__<; I forgot to steal it when I left her house after going to see the movie~

When we got to her house, we ate what we got from Burger King~ @__@; I wasn't able to eat it all... how big~ Even though I was really hungry from not eating anything till then~ My dad came and picked me up a while after~ Then I came home and watched some anime... x__x; and then it got quite late... and I tried to go to sleep... but then I got an idea, and here I am on the computer, still awake~ I was going to design something... but I still haven't gotten to that... @__@;

I wonder how the robotics competition went~ I didn't go~~~ haha... ^__^' I hope you didn't bring my shirt or anything, Kori~ haha... I heard a little about it from Megan's journal~ @__@;

Kyaa... well I guess that's all~ I wont go into why I am confused though~ *ish too confused~* @__@;

~♥~

Haha, Kori~!

2004-10-06T00:38:40Z

Kori... Kori... Goodness, goodness. You must've been slacking lately.

Always getting 5's on your topic papers. Oh, but today you got a 4.5. Tess happened to get a 5. Yes, a 5. I know you already know this, but I am reminding you. And then there was the max/min paragraph thing. You got a 20 out of 30. I got a 21 out of 30. Hahaha~! Though I just think Kaminski must like you less than me...

Well, if only I will be able to continue doing good in American History~ *__* Tess would be so happy~~~ Kyaa~ I doubt that... but... >__<; I will try to study extra hard for the midterm~! Ah... and for the Precal midterm as well...

~♥~

Orange lace~

2004-10-02T02:09:15Z

Well well... I see people saying that this week wasn't a good week of school. Heh.. if it was, I have no idea. I forget bad things easily, so if anything bad did happen, I don't remember~! I can't say being forced to do the debate was anything bad, when I went, because my side won that time~ And I am happy that I got a 15/20 on my American History quiz~ what an improvement~ From... 11/20 and 10/20... x__x; goodness, I am pathetic~ I didn't have much time to study as much as I wanted to, though~!

I just went to a fabric/craft store store with my mom~ I bought... fabric and lace.. and buttons... and ribbon... and whatever else~ I wanted to get black with orange polka dots fabric, but they didn't have that~ oh well~ I need to somehow buy a plain black shirt to destroy tomorrow~ and also get a pretty black skirt... ugyuu... *dies*

I don't have much to say~~~ I don't know if I want to go to Robotics club on thursday... x__x; but I want to eat things Kelly made again~ ah... maybe I'll go on Monday. That stupid club...

Ara... October first. That sounds so pretty~ @__@;~~~ Oh yes~ I finally decided on a birth-date for our almost eighteen year old cat with my mom. Since we finally realized his birthday was somewhere in between October and November, we mad his birthday October 31st~~~ Max will be 18~ goodness... I hope he makes it to that. I think he is an immortal cat.

laa... that's all I can come up with to say~ ^__^; I was happy in the beginning of the day, depressed after school, and happy after going to get materials~

~♥~

x__x; I need to find a way to save up money...

2004-09-22T21:56:18Z

Ah... It's so nice to be able to use my computer again... *hugs computer* The saddest thing is, it was really easy to fix... x__x; oh~ but goodness~ I love being with my dear Ryuuen~

Well well... yesterday we lost our parakeet, Lily, because of my brother and his friend. If only Lily was bigger and smarter, I would think she might survive. But no... all Lily ever did was eat food she was given, fly around when you didn't want her to (or else our other bird Simon, would probably inflict a deadly wound on her), or she would sing. And be happy, too. Poor dear Lily...

And poor Marie too~!!! I am so... so very angry at my dad~!!! Just because Marie made a little mess, my dad picked her up and threw her across the room! The cruelty of it all~! My mom thought she broke her leg or got a concussion, and so my mom was crying... I hate my dad... even though Marie was only very shaken up from it, who would through a poor defenseless bunny across the room~!? My dad even threatened to kill her if she annoys him again. If my dad did anything to her... again, I don't know what I would do to him. I wonder what my dad will do next for me to hate him even more. Like him almost always almost making me late for school... goodness... I also hate lying to him. I have to tell him that I 'love' him, even though I don't. It's just better to stay on his good side...

Ah... I want my PS2 back so much~~~ I wish my brother hadn't broken it~ I'm guessing it will be a long time until I can get another one... a really long time... >__<; But, I don't have any time to play on it now anyways~ I have many other things I must do~ Like homework... x__x; Drawing~ which I never have time to do seriously lately... and sewing~ and I have been so tired lately... as well~

I guess I should do the Cyber Run for Chemistry now then~ I read it, and it confused me~ then I will try to do the topic paper for Mr. West~ @__@; And study to take a re-take for the last pre-cal test... I made to many stupid mistakes~! >__<; ah... I want to get these things done today so I can go to Robotics club without worries~ @__@; haha... robotics...

♥

First day of school...

2004-08-16T22:32:56Z

=_________=; I had a wonderfully long entry with how my first day was and how I found it to be terrible... but of course the forces of whatever is against me saying anything~ First I have trouble with just talking... and now I can't even post what I think... oh well~ It is a fortunate thing for those who would've read it~ Though I am sure no one does would have anyways...

>__>; *watches Charmed* goodness... it has been a very long time since I have watched it...

Yay~

2004-07-25T15:33:14Z

Hmm... It has been quite a while since I updated... >__>;;; I just haven't had much I felt like writing... boring summer~ @__@;

Uwaa~ I was so happy to see Jeshika again~~~ Yesterday was lots of fun~ ^__^~

*dies* So me, Rod, Paul, and Daniel went to Jeshika's house to surprise her~ Luckily we got there right as she was leaving to go pick up her grandma with her mom~ So her mom went by herself~ Then we went into her house for the first time in a month~ >__<; Kind of an odd thing when we were almost always over there... so it was really nice~ We got to see the pretty video of her big pretty party and her looking pretty in her big pretty dress~ @__@; And there were lots of pretty pictures of her~ Lots~ Uui~ I love my candle~

Nya~ We went to the pool~ Which was fun~ ^__^; I guess~ Though I don't enjoy wearing bathing suits... it's better than not going in the pool~ After that we went back to Jeshika's house and played pictionary~ Which I find to be quite boring... but oh well~ @__@; *ish bad at it* We stopped playing after Daniel left... Hmm... then what did we do... we went in Jeshika's room I guess... and then went to Rod's and got two controllers and games to play~ It was fun to play the games all together~ Though sometimes they would get a little to emotional over a game... la~ <__<; I thought I would do worse than I did do, which was pretty bad anyways, I think~ Then at around 12:30 we all left~ I went home and my brother was asking me to play FFX-2... I don't understand why he likes to watch me play games~ @__@; But I was too tired to play... so I watched some anime and went to bed~ @__@; And now here I am... I woke up earlier than I expected to with how late I probably went to bed~ @__@; I should probably work harder on my personal project... *goes to try to write a script* ~&hearts;~

It hurts to do anything

2004-06-20T21:46:35Z

Well well~ Friday was fun~ I've never had so much fun at the beach~ ^__^ At the moment I am in pain because of it though... my back is burned and it hurts to do anything~ >__<; I was really happy to see everyone on Friday... I will miss Jeshika, and it was the last day I will have seen her till she comes back. It's good that she is updating her journal~ ^__^ I will miss others as well... I know I wont see anyone as much as when there was school, and that makes me sad.

There were bad parts of Friday too though~ >__<; I didn't get any sleep the night before because I was 'supposed' to be at Jeshika's at 7:30 in the morning. I had to finish a picture I was drawing for her which took forever. Perhaps, had I not decided to watch Kill Bill at the same time I would have gotten a little bit of sleep... @__@;

Oh well~ Then after I left Rod's house at around 7 or 8, I was forced to go eat dinner with them. I wish they would have taken me home... but no, they had to make a fun day end horribly. We ate at a Thai restaurant, but they seemed to have taken over an hour to give us our food. Then when we got the bill, they accidentally overcharged us. Then my mom broke a glass with her clumsiness. @__@; So, it took a long time to get out of there. Also, during the waiting for food, eating the food, and waiting to leave from there, I think I lost my mind. I really think I finally lost all of my sanity... and for why I do not really know. I felt really sick too.

And then, my mom decided we had to go to Borders to buy some of the books I am supposed to read over the summer. I wish we didn't go. I felt like fainting in there~!>__<; I kept feeling worse and worse... la la la... so I went out to stay in the car and I fell asleep~ @__@; They finally came out later, blah~ Took them over an hour~ >__<; When I came home I went right to bed.

Yesterday was completely pathetic. I almost slept the whole day~ @__@; I took about 5 naps, most of them in the morning. And that's about it for yesterday~ @__@;

Today, I don't know. My parents and brother went out somewhere and got my mom a new car, since her old car needed to go back or something. I stayed home, because I hadn't taken a shower yet or wanted to yet. And I just wasn't in the mood to go anywhere~ So I took a bath after a while... and the water overflowed~ @__@; I've never done that before... *was on the computer while the water was running* =__=; It wasn't fun to clean either...

~♥~

Edited my layout a bit~

2004-06-17T01:47:46Z

Well, it turns out I didn't go to the beach. My mom and brother left around when I woke up, and it took me a whole two hours to figure out that they had left without me. It was both a good and a bad thing, I got out of going to the beach, but I didn't get my hair cut yet. Hopefully I will tomorrow~ ^__^;

As you can see, I have worked a bit more on my layout. It is still not very good... but it is better, I believe~ ^__^ I want to fix up my icon, but I will do that some other time. HTML is both fun and evil... x__x; la~

Well~ I am off to go fold laundry~ ^__^;

~♥~

I hate the beach

2004-06-16T14:56:25Z

Why must I be dragged along to the beach... why oh why~? My mom says she doesn't want to go even, but my brother does, so we are going. Usually I would refuse to go no matter what, but she said that if I don't come she will get rid of the internet. =__=; She told me to just draw when we are there... I will probably melt instead though... I'm going to bring my phone, and play games on it~ @__@; And wish for someone to call me... not that anyone will~

At least she said that after we are at the beach, we can go get my hair cut~ That is, if she remembered that is what she told me~

So... now I am going off to finish the horrible background in a picture I started last night at 12 and worked on till 2. I don't understand how I can be up and typing this now instead of sleeping~

Stupidity~

2004-06-16T00:16:42Z

La~ I am downloading screen tones to hopefully use for my Personal project. That is, if I can find out how to use them for it. At least I am doing something for the project... .__.; I don't even know what I am going to use for the story yet, but at least I have what... ten or more ideas.

I think I will cut my bangs soon. Not cut them to the point of having bangs, but shorter than they are now. I think I want to cut about nine inches. *Used a ruler* I had no idea my bangs were more than a foot long... @__@;

Let's see... what else did I want to say... blah~ I don't know~ Umm... Love is a happi yet evil and depressing thing~ ^__^; Hmm... I tried to take an odd picture of my brother, but he wouldn't let me~ He's mean~ And so is my dad~ He wont help me get the pictures onto the computer~ I could probably figure it out myself if I knew where the stuff needed to connect the camera to the computer was~ I want to show people my cats and my stupid annoying bunny~

Fuu~ ♥

Happi and worried at the same time~

2004-06-14T17:48:57Z

I am thankful that my dad just went to work a while ago… It’s quite a sad thing when you don’t want to be around a family member, but I just don’t want to have anything to do with him. I seriously hope he is not serious about moving, wherever it is he plans to go. If we do actually ever move, and if it is before I am done with high school and far away from where we are now and the school I go to, I refuse to live with him. Even if the rest of my family is there, I don’t want to go anywhere else then I am now. Unfortunately I doubt anything I want will happen… *sighs* I have my reasons for not wanting to go anywhere~! So… >__<;

Okiiiiies~ I will talk about yesterday and such… most of the day was a lovely day~ It didn’t start off to lovely though… I woke up whenever I did… found out from Jeshika~ when I was to come over her house, and then I got ready~ Then my mom comes and tells me I have to clean my room if I wanted to go. My room wasn’t even messy at all~! So… she goes in and messes up everything in there that is where I would like it to be… so then I have to clean something I shouldn’t have had to. It was nice that Jeshika called me, with Rod on the line also, so it was somewhat fun to clean~

=__=; Then, when I am all done with my room, I go downstairs. I ask my mom if she will then take me, and she says no because she doesn’t believe I’ve cleaned my room. I continue to ask her, and then she tells me my dad took her car so she can’t take me. I have no idea why he took her car… why~!? She’s not allowed to use his car… and he took his car keys with him anyways also… I even told him I was going to Jeshika’s party. So… at home I was hating my dad. Even more then I already did. He didn’t even take his cell phone with him. So I finally went to Jeshika’s two hours late. I was happy to finally be there though…

Then, about twenty minutes after I came we all went to the pool. I couldn’t go in the pool, yet again. Why is it, that whenever anyone plans to go to the pool, it’s that time of the month for me? Ah well… I sat down alone until they decided to leave the pool… that was quite boring. I tried to sleep… I drew some ugly Lolita outfits… and blah~ I had fun the rest of the day though~ ^__^ Even though I went through much physical pain… I was happy… though I think I acted depressed sometimes… ah yes… I am depressed because Paul keeps saying that I show off my art… I don’t think that I do… and I don’t think it’s possible for someone who cannot draw to show off anything. So, he will never see any of my drawings again~ New things, at least…

I ♥ Jeshika~ I am going to miss her a lot when she is gone in Argentina~ But hopefully, she will update her journal when she can as she says she will~ ^__^

I’d like to write more… but I don’t really feel like it right now~ ^__^; I am tired of typing and I need to take a shower… and do some things~ la~ ♥